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Sometimes I wish you would tell me your secret needs, instead of leaving me drowning in ifs. I wish you'd tell me what makes you tear up, to let me know when the pain takes it's toll. Is it too much for me to bare? Is it too much for you to consider I care? I want you to know I'm here. I want you to know that I'll battle the fear. I wish you'd hold onto me a little tighter now, I wish you'd dream of me. Your walls keep us apart. You forget you always hold my heart.

Am I suppose to be happy when I wake up? All I ever wanted was a dream that I wouldn't die in. I made myself believe that dreams are nothing but fears and wants. Am I suppose to be alive inside? My heart beats but I never feel warm to the touch. I died in my dreams last night just like I did the night before. What do I have to keep telling myself just so I can fall asleep? My eyes swell with tears the moment I awake from death. I tremble, I want to change. Am I suppose to be happy when all I ever wanted was to awake from hell?

Why'd you disappear just to come back after all these years? It makes me scream just to know that it was all a lie, when you were meant to die and I let you die in my eyes. This time I'll take my own path to push away every moment of every dream to be alive to see you die, if only I could have been something more I'd let you go. Memories that I held onto wash away in this bottle I cling to because beauty is in my eye and I need to pick it out. I thought you died, I let you go, never had a doubt, time went by and here I cry, and I find you here.... Get away from me I'll make you scream. Tell me not what's a lie, but a truth. Burn these e

In the deadest of nights the only thing left to hold on to is your hand because it's the only light in here. With every second passing I find myself being crashed over by waves of emptiness, but you'd always be there to be my life preserver because you're always floating around in my heart. I brought myself here to survive on only images of my past that couldn't take me to the future, so my present was never clear, but you burnt out every memory of pain with a smile. I'm always falling and you are always catching me and it seems to me that I have something in my life. I have you, my only thing, my everything. I seem to realize that if I'm

Now come you, come what ever you bring because I have to show you what I feel. Another day spent in thought, and in those thoughts you lay. I want to be nothing, but yours. The time spent away from you kept me awake and restless. No taste came to my mouth as I ate the fruit of the day and bitterness toward myself consumed me. You were so true and the hardest part of this was leaving you. I can't bare a life without you. If you spend forever with me I would never need to cry and your tears are priceless pearls to never be seen or touched. I feel so dark because of all I've done. All you wanted was to be kissed, to Smother Me.

Tonight I have to tell you that saying I love you isn't enough to express what I feel for you. You walk through my laced up soul to tear it apart to make room for yourself, to comfort my loneliness. Can you hear me cry out to you, I feel like I'm so far away from your arms, embrace me like the last kiss. I don't want to disappear; I always want to be the reflection in your eyes. Well I have been a fool to be so cruel to whom I love and now my Loneliness consumes me, so take me back to your heart. It's where I feel the safest, the most alive, the most at home.

Come pull yourself from the dark, you need to scream. Bring yourself to find some help to call out to me. Stop telling me I'm not the man you gave your life to. Hate me, hate me but you can't tell me to bleed anymore. I'm coming but I'm quitting on you once again. I just liked to keep cutting but I can't go any further. This was just a mental love; we were just sitting in the dark. I won't be there anymore.

Hand me a needle to thread together my skin, because all myself is falling apart. Turn off all the lights so my eyes won't glisten when my tears begin to fall. I'm not all alone but I forgot what it's like to be with someone. Hand me a cigarette so I can choke on something else other than my own words. Where have I been? I've been lost drowning in thought and emotion. I've had time to look at the blood running from my wrists that black isn't just a shade but an emotion. I used to be called an angel, but I clipped my own wings and now I'm falling back down. The strangest thing about all this is I was here many times before.

Why don't you kiss me like you did to stop my heart from beating. Sinking down right into bed my head is crashing down upon your chest, listening to the beat of a hollowless chest. In my own way I have never left your side, I've only got what I never let go. I'm melting in a heart shaped coffin to fill up something I hold so dear, my heart meant only for you like my first time. I got empty hands waiting for you to wake up and hold dear. Open your eyes and the sun will open up for you. Now I close my eyes and hold you tightly like I never did before. Give me one last kiss in the darkness where we lay because for today I am not empty, I

In my waking eyes I see shrouds of people around me. In the days I live I see things that few notice. But you come around with a smile. Showed me that I am not alone. You are the closest thing I've had in awhile. You are my best friend, who is always there. And in the middle of a gun fight in the center of a restaurant we will come with our guns raised and take down Devils in drag.